One Small Step For Larger Kind

Day 1 attempt number 2,897,702 at losing weight.

This isn't going to be one of those "oh my God this product is amazing" or "i feel great after working out for 3 hours" and all the other BS that gets written about. This is for me to sort through trials and tribulations of weight loss and if someone reads this, gets some inspiration or a laugh than that's a bonus.

A few months ago I had "the moment", that being the thing that makes every fat person go "alright, enough is enough". I was kneeling on a floor going through some DVDs trying to find something to watch and my knee couldn't support me to get back up. Of course my first thoughts weren't really about how I was trying to get up with my bad knee or how this was a sign that it was time to really take my weight loss seriously. No, the thought that entered my mind was more along the lines of "And this is how I die, stuck on the floor. At least the dogs will survive off me for a couple weeks", then I thought about the weight thing.

For years I've tried off and on to lose weight. Tried weight watchers and had some mild successes and beach body and hated my life, of course not as much as I hated the whoo-hooers on the work out DVDs. Seriously who actually enjoys sweating their balls off that much that they need to cheer their way through the torture.

My newest steps have been to ask my doctor to send me to a dietician and start tracking everything. Of course my doc sent me to a nutritionist, which was fine until she mentioned the classes. Now they promote these classes as valuable nutritional education, and there are definitely some educational aspects, but for the most part the education revolves around teaching you why you are fat.

Here is the thing, all fat people know why they are fat, it just depends on whether they acknowledge it. For some people it's medication, health issues and some are just flat out in denial saying they don't know how they got so large. For me I know why I'm fat, I make bad choices and I love food! I love cooking and eating food that is delicious. Sure there are some medical issues that aren't helping either, but what's frustrating is my doctor and I are struggling to figure out exactly what they are.

So that's my story for now. This is going to be a journey and a battle but in the end it's going to be worth it.